By the morning of my assessment I had wound myself up so much I was nauseous. I stopped taking the Duromine 10 days before my appointment so that the psychiatrist would be able to assess me in my full ADHD state. My mind was going a million miles an hour through all possible eventualities trying to prepare myself.
I was reading an Instagram post by a woman with ADHD and she mentioned a saying she likes “progress not perfection”. This instantly jumped into my brain and began to dance so I have decided that going into 2019 this has to become my mantra.
2 years ago we turned our lives upside down and left a busy and strained life in Auckland for a smaller and calmer life in Rotorua. Making that move pushed re-set on my life, I inspired myself, and I felt more like myself than I had done in many years. I could never have predicted the series of events that would unfold from that one decision.
Back on the Duromine I was able to start processing the prospect of the diagnosis, I spent many hours mentally running through my life events and reflecting on all the ways ADHD impacted the course of it. I feel like I went through a period of grief while processing all of this, I felt immense sadness for the life that could have been for me had I been diagnosed as a child.
As soon as we were settled in Hamilton I knew my first job was to register with a GP and get myself referred to a psychiatrist to be diagnosed. I went prepared with my diagnosis criteria checklist from the psychologist and was naively excited thinking the ball would be rolling very fast from there. The… Continue reading 2 – Who, what, where, when?